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anyanka_eg ([personal profile] anyanka_eg) wrote2007-09-02 10:53 am
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Lost and Found

Title: Lost and Found
Author: Anyanka_eg
Rating: PG
Pairing: McShep
Summary: He was pretty sure it would never have made a list of things he'd ever find floating above the planet.


Colonel, are you coming?”


He didn't want to because this was never going to be good. As soon as he saw it, drifting on its slow arc over the city, he'd known that this wasn't going to have a happy ending. It wasn't what he'd expected to find when when he'd taken his team up in a cloaked jumper to investigate the blip that had suddenly appeared on Atlantis' sensors.
In fact, he was pretty sure it would never have made a list of things he'd ever find floating above the planet.


A jumper, for god's sake, floating in lazy spin round the planet. He'd half expected to hear Blue Danube as he'd cautiously piloted his own craft towards it but there had been nothing. No lights, no greeting hail, no life signs and he'd felt an itching creep of dread along his spine. The occupants of the jumper were either long gone or very dead and, call him a pessimist, but he was fairly certain it was the latter.


It was obvious that the jumper hadn't just appeared in orbit above the city, rather that the cloak had failed and Atlantis' sensors were suddenly able to see it. He knew there were ways of hiding a jumper even from Atlantis herself but he didn't think anyone abandoning a jumper in space would do it, especially when rescue would come from the planet below. And surely even a damaged jumper would be worth the salvage?


Seriously colonel, we need to do this now.”


He moved forward, his EVA suit cumbersome and sweaty even in the cold of space. It would have been easier to bring the Ancient craft back to Atlantis, to explore it in the comfort of things like oxygen and gravity, but there was no way he was going to expose the city to whatever was in the jumper. So they'd stretched the shield round both craft and introduced an atmosphere but no one was going any where without a suit because, hey, pathogens.


He moved cautiously inside, his pistol drawn because there might have been no atmosphere in there but you never knew in the Pegasus galaxy. Nothing launched itself at him and nothing skittered away from the beam of his flashlight but he was still uneasy. There was something pricking at his mind, some memory squirming its way into his consciousness, and it made all the muscles in his shoulders bunch with tension.


In the middle of the rear compartment, between the benches, two bodies lay tangled together on the floor, their limbs entwined like lovers in an embrace. They were covered in the same thick frost that dusted every other surface in jumper and crunched under his feet as he moved. He inched forward, sweeping the beam of his flashlight around the small space, almost certain now that it was safe to allow his team to enter the craft.


Oh, Jesus!”


Or his team would follow him in and peer over his shoulder despite his orders. He fought the urge to roll his eyes because it was a useless gesture inside the suit and it gave him a headache if he did it every time he wanted to. He turned the flashlight on to the faces of bodies as he stepped closer and his heart stopped in chest.
He knew them.


And then it fell into place; the memory that had been pushing at his mind, the feeling that there was something he should know, suddenly all made sense. They'd been here all the time, no more than one hundred and fifty miles from the city they had both called home.


Is that...Is it them?”


There was awe, and maybe just a little bit of fear, in his scientist's voice and he totally got that because, hell, this was John Sheppard and Rodney McKay. Their pictures graced the halls of the city, their city, and everyone posted to Atlantis knew them. They all knew how, after the final battle for Atlantis, Sheppard had returned victorious to the city only to find McKay had been killed in an explosion. They knew how he'd taken his friend's body from the morgue, laid it in the jumper he'd flown against the Wraith and vanished into the sky. They knew he never returned.


And now they knew why.


Sheppard had cloaked his jumper, turned off the life support and laid down to die next McKay. His head was pillowed on McKay's shoulder, his fingers were entwined with the other man's and their joined hands were pulled close to his lips. On Sheppard's cheek, frozen for over fifty years, was a shiny track of tears.


He'd always thought that the chaos following the battle had been the reason no one was sent after Colonel Sheppard when he left, now he thought maybe the survivors had known these two were meant to be together. Maybe in those early days of the city, when any relationship between the two would have cost the Colonel his career, a few of the inhabitants had known that there was something more than friendship there. Maybe they had known that Sheppard couldn't live in an Atlantis that didn't have McKay.


Looking down at the two bodies, the man who was the ninth person to sit in Sheppard's chair, made his choice. There would be those who wanted their bodies brought back, those who wanted to give them a hero's burial, but this was their tomb, this was where they belonged. They had been together, here in the frozen jumper, for longer than they had when they were alive and he wasn't going to change that.


After fixing the cloak and sealing the jumper, all official reports of the incident would show nothing more than a minor malfunction of Atlantis' sensors. A few would know the truth but most of the people who came and went in the city would never know that when they looked up, wishing on some distant star, that closer to home Sheppard and McKay were still watching over the city they had died protecting.


[identity profile] lavvyan.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 10:48 am (UTC)(link)
;___;

*wibbles*

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 10:52 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks :-)

[identity profile] mckayfan.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 11:22 am (UTC)(link)
wow that was beautiful.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 11:31 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I'm glad you liked it.
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[identity profile] smuffster.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 11:26 am (UTC)(link)
*weeps*

So beautiful.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 11:32 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you.

[identity profile] zaraakinae.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 11:50 am (UTC)(link)
THIS is the first fic I've mem'd, and the first time I've delurked. Ever. It's the highest praise any author will get from me, but this writing deserves it. It's just so heartbreakingly elegant and beautiful. There are no words in the English language capable of describing this piece.

Zaraakinae Tannarith

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 12:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow. Thanks. It was mostly written because the image was stuck in my head and I needed it out of there so I could get on with writing what I'm supposed to be writting. Glad you liked it.

[identity profile] sunnyd-lite.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 01:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Lovely mis-direct and *sniff*

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 01:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. It was kind of tough not to give it away too soon.

[identity profile] mangst.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 02:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Holy Crap! The misdirect in the beginning was just beautiful, because it made the discovery that much more of a shock. Beautifully done.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 04:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I found it tough to write it without using names but not make it obvious I wasn't using names. Glad it worked.

[identity profile] yellowvalley.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 02:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I normally would want a warning on this, but God, the impact nearly knocked me off my chair.
This was awesomely done, you totally had me fooled all the way to the reveal.


Gah, I need to go do something happy now.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I glad you liked it. I worried about not putting a warning on but I thought it'd ruin the reveal. I hope you found someting happy to read.

[identity profile] dajaje.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 02:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Wow, that was beautiful and heart-wrenching. Great story!

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 04:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.

[identity profile] liamar13.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 03:07 pm (UTC)(link)
that was absolutely beautiful. its so sparse but you can see everything so clearly. and just the idea (im not crying, ive just got something in my eye). as i was saying- totally wonderful.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I knew I couldn't do the image I had of Sheppard finding out McKay was dead justice if I wrote it from his POV. This has a greater distance on it and lets people imagine how he felt. Hope the thing in your eye has gone ;-)

[identity profile] kaniku.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 03:35 pm (UTC)(link)
*sniffs*

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*

[identity profile] skeddy-kat.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 03:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Sad, haunting, and totally fitting. Thanks.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 04:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.
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[personal profile] cordeliadelayne 2007-09-02 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
*sniffle* Very nicely written.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 05:01 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* thank you

[identity profile] le-mot-mo.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 06:42 pm (UTC)(link)
OH yes. This is perfect. When I started reading, I thought it was John who was up there, feeling uncomfortable-- but when we finally learn the truth-- *sniff*

Seems they had their perfect ending together.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I was hoping that the surprise worked. And yes, even though I'm a sucker for a happy ending, it works like this.

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[identity profile] azilver.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
...gods. this just makes my heart ache! beautifully written and just the justice in it having been the final battle, that john wanted to share his death with rodney, that they will always be watching the city...
beyond words.
aza

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 07:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. It seemed a poetic ending, although I'm sure Rodney would say it was cosmic irony.

[identity profile] burntcopper.livejournal.com 2007-09-02 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm going with wibble. Really I am.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I'm glad you liked it.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
:-)
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*wibble*

[identity profile] krysalys.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
You broke me.
*tearysniffle*
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Re: *wibble*

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 05:09 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*
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[identity profile] loriel-eris.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 08:21 am (UTC)(link)
*cries* Awesome!

I (think I) knew it was John and Rodney dead in the jumper before you revealed that bit. But I thought that the team was John, Rodney, Teyla and Ronon right up until you revealed otherwise - my theory was that this was a John and Rodney from the future or alternate timeline or something, and that this snippet would be John and Rodney literally seeing their future. That was what I got from reading it, and what I was convinced was happening/going to happen right until this: "Is that...Is it them?"

This was very well done. :)

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 05:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Oooo now, you see, I never thought of that scenario. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[identity profile] call-robin.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 06:52 pm (UTC)(link)
You... you just broke my heart. *sniffs* So sad and yet so... perfect. Won't get rid of that image for quite a long time, I guess. *grabs tissue-box*

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 06:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I'm glad you liked it, even though it made you cry.

*hugs*

[identity profile] witch-in-winter.livejournal.com 2007-09-03 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Just lovely...thank you. A fitting way for them to be together forever.

Keep up the good work.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-04 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. And I love your icon.
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[identity profile] emeraldteal.livejournal.com 2007-09-04 06:33 am (UTC)(link)
Whoo. That gave me the shivers. It was sad, but it's still ok because they're together. (except for the fact that John had to find out that Rodney had died *wibble*) And the fact that John cloaked the jumper, forever orbiting Atlantis... *more wibbling*

I love the fact that the people who found them were another Colonel and his impatient scientist... \o/

Thanks for sharing! :D

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-04 04:51 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I think the Colonel having an impatient scientis is a universal constant. Glad you enjoyed it, even though there was wibbling :-)

[identity profile] bitter-crimson.livejournal.com 2007-09-05 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Sad sad sad but beautiful. I can see how you got that image stuck in your head.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-05 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. I'm glad you liked it. It was the idea of John taking the jumper that I had and I knew I couldn't actually do it justice. This worked though.

[identity profile] droolfangrrl.livejournal.com 2007-09-06 08:02 am (UTC)(link)
eep, and i'm getting all teary eyed and stuff

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-06 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* Glad you liked it.
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[identity profile] korilian.livejournal.com 2007-09-28 06:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Sheesh morbid much. But very good in its creepyness.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2007-09-28 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks. I suppose it was a bit morbid. I was in a funny mood when I wrote it :-)

[identity profile] ionaonie.livejournal.com 2008-01-22 09:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Hon, this makes me cry every time I read it, but I love it so much. It's beautiful. So, so beautiful. But so sad. Love it so, so much.

[identity profile] anyanka-eg.livejournal.com 2008-01-22 10:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you. It made me sniffle a bit writing it too. It just popped in my head and I had to get it out.